I took Dylan with us today for Papa's PET Scan and while we waited we talked more about how Papa is changing and how hard it is for all of us. I reminded him that he shouln't be too upset when he gets grumpy with him, he can't help it and we can talk about it when it happens. My Mom was rushed back to the hospital today, I had to leave my DH and Dat my daughters house, with 5 yr old grandson sick with flu/ so that I could be at the hospital. By the time I picked Dh and Dylan up after dinner he was in A MOOD!! Boy taking him out of "his enviornment" is getting to be more troublesome. I AM being pulled in two directions, its so hard, I really shouldn't leave DH alone, yet I need to spend some time at the hospital and we do not have any services in place to help and it's flippin school vacation week on top of it. And we are in the middle of a snowstorm and I slid off the road and blew a tire on a curb and bent my rim and God only knows what else on the way home from the hospital. My car is being towed, my daughter took sick child out of bed to pick me up AGHHHHHHHHH! If the lakes weren't frozen I swear I'd drive into one. I told a friend that I was going to go drive into the lake and she reminded me that they are all frozen, crap, I can't even get that right@! So here I sit, blowing off steam to you all with a glass of wine in one hand. Thanks for being here.
Thinking about you, Jim's wife, and all you're going through right now. Just when you think things can't get any worse,...they do. The old saying "when it rains, it pours" is certainly true for you right now. Hang in there and hopefully things will be better.
Geez, Jim's wife, talk about having a bad day. I hope things get better pronto. Meanwhile, blowing off steam is very healthy, and a glass of wine probably helped with attitude adjustment. :-)
hey jim`s wife. it`s so understandable where you are coming from, I have days like that where I just want to chuck it all in, hang in there, think of something to make you smile, I use my grandchildren for that, they can always make me smile, or the sunshine, or thank god for when he sleeps.
I am so sorry you are having such a bad day. It does seem like everything happens at once. Please know you are in my thoughts & prayers for strength, guidance & lots of patience. By the way I have a grandson also named Dylan, he is 8.
You're beginning to remind me of Vickie ... wandering around with your own, personal black cloud over your head, just like Joe Btfsplk in Li'l Abner. So sorry so many things have been going wrong. Maybe you're just getting your bad luck out of the way all at once ... ?
Well, Sunshyne, my black cloud has lifted - somewhat! I can actually see some sun shining through. My son will be put on the transplant list April 1st! My Mom is doing well in the NH - just had her 91st birthday. My DH has been SO GOOD the last month -almost seems "normal" most of the time! Now if I could just get this KY weather to cooperate and stop acting like we are way up North!
Jim's wife - so very sorry for all you've been through. Things will get better - I promise!
Thank you all sooooo much, I honestly do not know where I would be if I had not found you all. I love you all, you have all become my best friends, my supporters, my laughter, my tears. Thank you, it flippin miserable that we have to go through this, but I am so blessed to be in such good company. God Bless you all.
Hey, Jim's wife. Don't you just hate it when everything comes crashing down at one time. I know exactly what you are going through. It happens. And about all you can do is just roll with it. Try not to make any long-term plans.
in one year we had 8 hospitalizations, 5 operations, a bicycle accident, an auto accident (with 5 kids on board), we got sued and our son with cerebral palso had to be hospitalized for an emotional break down. I felt like telling him to move over cause I wanted half of the bed. Wow. I was exhausted.
And, I know you are as well. Please do yourself a favor and try to get some time if possible for yourself. Is sthere anyone who can visit with DH while you are at the hosp with your mother?
My "sister" has come out of the woodwork, to visit Mom tomorrow, lightning must have struck or something. Anyway I will take the day tomorrow to try and catch up around the house and grocery shop. Then tomorrow night I will have a quiet visit with my Mom. Oh, DH tried to make dinner, he was an excellent cook, but tonight......well it was a hot meal and I didn't have to make it! A glass of wine helped :o) He has now forgotten how to make coffee and how to turn on the dishwasher. But he did snowblow the driveway. I was really pleased I think he was too.
what else??? the most bizarre dream i have had up to date i think! it was soo vivid and to top it off i dream in technicolor. lots of hidden meanings etc. since it most definately referred some ofyou here thought i'd retell it. just plain bizarre..i know i am nuts.. watched a nature program last nite about wolves..here goes. running in a pack of wolves, dozens of them. guess what? the pack of wolves are many of US! there was Red, a darkish red heavily coated female with compassionate dark eyes, that hovered protecting the kill. Sunshyne, a black/grayish female, with soulful dark black eyes and somewhat skittish and standoffish but would fleetingly enter/leave the pack at will:)we all revered her:) marsh, a silverhaired older male wolf that had special rank, wisdom, and the other male Gchipper, a huge black male that kept off with marsh. constantly watched the females and waited his rank to eat. bluedaze, you are here, as one of the top females, bluishgray heavy coat,bluish eyes that were captivating even in a dream, and everyone knew you were one of those few that dominated the females. i would guess alfa..joan was there running as well, strange, ha. she was younger considering the age of others but was defiantley running the show:)not as big as some of the others but strength and endurance was projected. she and bluedaze ran together. kitty you were here too all white, (katrina?) and beautiful! you stood out among everyone and it was almost the feeling you were adopted from another females group. and then there was Divvi, haha. me in the group a large comical allover blonde color:)always nipping and rolling over for grooming sessions?and cojoling to the point of irritating some of the others!??haha..but as i got a good look at myself, on the surface it was all smiles, but under the facade was a furocious huge set of fangs concealed for when the pack joined for protection of the weak.. the hair on her back would stand up and she transformed into something quite scary.. i woke up as we were all running somewhere, it was quite bizarre, and i actually got out a pen to make notes i found it quite facinating.. i guess this 'pack' is on my mind even in dreams..and yes, my psychoanalyst told me many yrs ago he never saw anyone who could dream in such details..its quite eery..like an out of body experience and so real...anyway since it has something to relate to some of you i thought i'd share.. i guess i have formed opinions of some of this group as expressed in their wolves personality!! how VERY stange, huh..but then i am strange:)divvi
I feel honored to be included in your dream, divvi.
I occasionally have very vivid dreams also, and recall having had one so vivid I wrote it down some years ago about a conversation I was having with a bird who was hopping around on top of our air conditioning compressor --I'll keep my eyes open for it.
sunshyne, if you look at yourself here, i have said you disppear one day off/on researching and we miss you when you are gone..:) revered? i doubt there is any doubt with all your infinite scientific wisdom who we 'rever' in this group..haha..kitty has a white cat, and feels sometimes she didnt belong cause her husband doesnt have AD! red, well we call her that due to her hair!bluedaza said she doesnt want to take any crap off anyone anymore..ie, alfa! haha. marsh, retired dr and respect there, gchipper, the ladies man,!HAHA and i guess in my insanity i related my conceived personality traits to each of you in a pack member. go figure, isnt the brain wonderous?:)
I also feel honored to be included in your dream, Divvi! And I am very protective of those I love (plus anything I acquire!). I thought your dream described us very well. I see the same traits here in those who were in your dream. Your dream didn't include all of the dirty dozen, though....hope they don't feel left out! <grin>
You're right how so many of us are protective of our spouses, fiercely so! I was having my own dreams, so I don't mind being in Divvi's, but I can't remember mine now!
I agree with GC - I'm honored to have been included in your dream. Only one correction - even though I am 77 years old, my hair is just beginning to turn grey (and I did NOT dye it).
We inherit the "when you turn grey gene" as well as the men inheriting the receding hairline. My father had the receding hairline and my 38 year old younger son has it too! My older son (45) has a head full of hair and no gray...
However, the grey wolf IS the most handsome, Marsh! That doesn't mean your real hair has grey in it! <grin>