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    Hey everyone - I have been absent from the site for quite some time. Just a refresher, me and my husband have been married 11-1/2 years and he has had dementia for 5-1/2 - 6 years of that. His diagnosis is FTD. He is 72 and I am 45, so I still work outside the home. My parents, who are 80 and 76, come each day and get him lunch and help take care of our dogs.

    A couple of things come to mind, one, my parents are getting old and are probably not the "best" back-up plan for a caregiving system although it works right now. Second, based on my age and our home, etc., I have to work, so being a full-time caregiver is not an option. Nor do I think I could. I love my husband or the person that remains, but I am not in love with this person I go home to each night. I am 45 years old and we have not been intimate in almost 7 years.

    Getting back on subject, what were some of the things that were clear signs that you knew it was time for placement for your spouse into a facility that could offer 24 hour care? I struggle with this daily. I want to keep him home as long as I can, and as long as it's safe but I know that's not going to be forever.

    My Mom thinks I just want to get rid of him so I can live my life. That's not it at all. True, my life is pretty depressing right now, but I also don't know what life looks like without him. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't long for companionship, because I do. It's not so much the sex that I miss, but more the conversation, and little touches, etc.

    Any advice is welcomed.
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      CommentAuthorCharlotte
    • CommentTimeApr 22nd 2019
     
    When it is no longer safe for him to be left alone. It could be because he wanders; turns on appliances; can't remember to get his meals; anything that will worry you that could happen when left alone. Also, being alone he gets no socialization. With FTD there will most like behavior problems that will come up. Some will often get violent which if happens with your parents is not good. I would not let what your parents think and say affect your decision unless they support you. Until you have been in your boots they don't know. Plus, we all handle situations differently.

    I would start looking to see what is out there and figure out when the time comes how you will pay. Is he a veteran? He may be able to get help through them. I would imagine when the time comes to place him he will fight you on it - hope he doesn't. You could start with day care might be an option.

    Also, make sure all the legal paperwork is in order. That your assets are protected as much as possible.

    Just keep in mind - your health is #1. He has a terminal illness. I would tell those who don't support you, to please keep their opinions to themselves.
    • CommentAuthoroakridge
    • CommentTimeApr 22nd 2019
     
    I can't speak to your placement problem since my husband is at home but sure can sympathize with your statement that you love your husband but are not "in love" with the person he is now. Sometimes it's hard to love them period :)
    • CommentAuthorpaulc
    • CommentTimeApr 22nd 2019
     
    No one answer for everyone. I believe the decision has more to do with your limits and when you are going crazy and not any specific stage your spouse might be in. Given your age and need to work this might push you to doing it sooner.

    Also, as Charlotte says, when it is no longer to be safe at home. Of if he needs more routine. Some people with FTD do better after placement if in a good place that provides support.

    In my case my wife's sisters were suggesting it, her psychiatrist suggested it, the neurologist suggested it and the paid caregiver suggested it. In the last case she noticed that my wife was much less active than when she started working for us. My wife's sisters though that I and our son would do better.
    • CommentAuthorpaulc
    • CommentTimeApr 22nd 2019
     
    I also recommend joining https://www.ftdsupportforum.com for help being a FTD caregiver.
    • CommentAuthorWolf
    • CommentTimeApr 22nd 2019
     
    easttexaskitten69,

    If you have the option of placement then it's not a question of if you will because you're going to. It's just a question of when. That's a sad truth because this is going to continue to deteriorate and you cannot work full time and provide full time care. That's true even if we don't work once their care needs extend to anywhere in each 24 hours.

    Thoughts about ourselves always sound bad but the road to you being on your own is already set and is a matter of time - not options.

    If the income is required for long term viability then it's the income that is the priority and the choice of continuing to work and placing your husband is the necessity that creates viability for you both. There aren't any 'good' choices here.

    As to you being allowed to have life; save the one you can. Everyone wrestles with placing their spouse and what that brings. It's it's own horrible part of this experience. You're probably right that your parents are getting past the point where they can provide what you and your husband are both going to need.

    This is a very hard experience to go through. It sounds like it might be likely that keeping the job and placing him when you have to is a road of necessity already in your life. Numerous others here have formed new relationships while providing care, love, and support for their placed spouse. Words aren't going to easily cut it in things like this. We have the right to our life and more than that, it's a good thing when we can find a way to continue our life.
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    Thanks everyone for your comments. I remember when I first found this site quite some time ago and I started reading through the older messages and discovered message threads on almost everything that was going on at the time with my husband. It was a relief to finally know that I wasn't alone, even though I wish this journey on no one.

    Charlotte - Yes, my husband is a veteran. He served in Vietnam and received a Purple Heart. However, he has no idea where it is at. It could be with his ex-wife, or could have possibly been lost between his 1st and 2nd marriage. I have started the process for getting a replacement medal, which according to the Army can take up to 180 days, so waiting on that. With his Purple Heart, he would qualify for care at a Veteran's Home because the Purple Heart automatically places him in a different tier, or at least from what I have been told. In talking with an elder care attorney, trying to qualify for Medicare would be possible however, my company uses a 401-k with company match as our "retirement" and Medicare looks at 401-k as an asset and can take 1/2 of it up to a certain amount.

    I have found during this journey that some of the people nearest and dearest to you or so you thought are not so supportive after all. My relationship with my family is very distant now because they want to judge me and offer up opinions on things they know nothing about. I have lost my best friend of 30+ years because she had different opinions of what she thought I should be doing.

    I know the time is coming and sooner than I like to think. I'm exhausted and depressed but yet I still have a very hard time thinking about taking him away from his home. Thanks again to all of you for your comments and suggestions.
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      CommentAuthorCharlotte
    • CommentTimeApr 24th 2019
     
    I think you mean Medicaid. Would have been nice if Medicare and Medicaid didn't start with the same beginning! Contact the VA geriatric division. They come out, do an assessment and then let you know what they can offer. They can help to get help for things like day care, respite, etc. If not already, go to the VA website and check the caregiver support sect. As for the Purple Heart there should be a paper trail proving it without the physical award. Being a veteran he is eligible to reside in a veteran home. They can also help if you sense the VA is dragging their feet. If not them, there are veterans, usually can be found through the VFW, that can help with red tape.
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    Thanks Charlotte, Yes, I did mean Medicaid. Everything seems to run together these days. I will check into the other places you mention as well.
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      CommentAuthorCharlotte
    • CommentTimeApr 25th 2019
     
    If Bonnie pops in, she had a great VA office that was connecting her up with help until her husband took a sudden turn and died.

    It is called 'geriatric evaluation and management'. If you have a 'my healthy vet' account set up, it may show up in the address book there. (open compose and see if it shows up).
    • CommentAuthorbhv*
    • CommentTimeApr 25th 2019
     
    If you haven’t signed him up for VA healthcare I suggest you do that soonest. Even if you won’t use it right away, it takes a little while to get things set up and you don’t know how things are going to play out. Even if you never use it, it’s a resource.

    Look for the closest Veterans Service Office (VSO). Since he was “in country” he qualifies and with Purple Heart has higher priority. No need for the physical medal. They’ll look it up with SSN. Once signed up for VA healthcare, ask about “catastrophically disabled”. There’s a form to get doctor to sign. You can find it on the VA website. It takes persistence with that. I couldn’t find people familiar with the category. If you get that a lot of stuff is free.

    Come to think of it, Charlotte, have you tried that? There were some people on alzconnected who got that for their husbands. I left the form with his geriatric psychiatrist, but he died before our next appt. And, yes, dementia is catastrophically disabled.

    You can use VA healthcare in conjunction with Medicare and your regular plan. If he retired from the Army and has Tricare for life then for most things Tricare for Life is better than VA. However, I wasnt finding geriatric psychiatric care locally. Here in Southern Cal, Loma Linda VA has a geriatric clinic that was worth the drive and minimal copays. As his caregiver I had access to a clinical psychologist and social worker. But he died just 5 months after I found out about that clinic.

    My husband just liked to stay home and be with me. When I first thought about placing him I decided to try Adult day care first. I had checked out a place a year before that and didn’t think my husband would tolerate it, but a year later I just needed some freedom and signed him up. I didn’t even explain it to him. Just took him there and said he’d stay there for awhile and I’d come get him later. I was amazed it worked. If cost is an issue some of those places have grants and scholarships. Your local Office on Aging may also have scholarships.
    Bonnie
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      CommentAuthorCharlotte
    • CommentTimeApr 25th 2019
     
    thanks Bonnie. Never heard of the 'catastrophically disable'. Will have look into it.

    Even if you income is too high for him to use VA medical, there are still other programs he will qualify for.
    • CommentAuthorbhv*
    • CommentTimeApr 25th 2019
     
    He is VietNam vet. So income doesn’t impact healthcare eligibility. He qualifies due to agent orange exposure. For some things income affected the co pay, which was negligible.

    I think with catastrophically disabled there’s no copay for office visits and medications!
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      CommentAuthorCharlotte
    • CommentTimeApr 25th 2019
     
    Ya - the copay changes. We were originally $15 for 90 days on RX. Now it is $24 for 90 days. Got a little raise in SS this year so the copay went up even though Medicare Part B went up plus supplement went up. Can't win there!
    • CommentAuthorSedgly
    • CommentTimeApr 26th 2019
     
    Interesting about the rx copays changing. Jim was drafted in '70 and spent 2 years. Signed for VA care in 80s but didn't use it till 2013. Copay for meds has always been $24 for 3 months or $8 for one, doesn't matter what meds.

    And it hasn't changed even with the change in income.

    I didn't realize dementia could qualify for catastrophically disabled. They do offer so many days of day care they pay for or having someone come in. Unfortunately for us daycare is now over an hour away so not an option. I am going to start having someone in soon.