I am not sure when the moon will be exactly full but can feel the tension building minute by minute.

Wed I was all excited cause my cousin was coming for a visit while hb was at day care. He is taking care of his parents. Moved them in with him 5 years ago. He is sort of an older brother for me. We had a terrific time. He had mentioned eggs benedict last Saturday when Hb and I went to San Diego to visit them, so I made that for lunch. It was odd to get together so soon but it seemed like we were both too vigilant over the others and didn't get enough time one on one. He has panic attacks too. So I think we will do this more often.

When I dropped hb off at Day Care one of the social workers told me that hb nearly escaped twice last week. The first time this social worker (a man) slipped his arm through the door handle and hb tried to push through him and pounded him on the back. Other staff members didn't stop to help this guy. This aggressive episode lasted quite some time before he was able to calm hb down. Apparently an hour or so later hb saw another way out and followed some of the staff who were.rearranging offices and re-opening another wing. Fortunately four staff members, including the social worker, were out front and stopped him. That time he didn't get as aggressive and calmed down more quickly. Probably cause there were four of them.

I remember the nurse told me he had nearly escaped a little while ago and I thought it was the day I forgot to give him the depakote in the morning. The nurse didn't make it seem like a big thing. This social worker wants me to make sure to relay this to the psychiatrist.

He also says I'd do better seeing a neurologist. But I thought they said I need a geriatric psychiatrist to deal with the behavior issues.

I have been so happy since he started depakote in May. Feels like I am on another planet. It is that different. But now the moon is coming full again. And the last three days he has made a fist and come at me again.

Tonight he got furious when I said I didn't want the beer he was taking out of the frig. I was in the middle of serving up his magesty's supper. I made the mistake of following him in to the living room and asking if he wanted beer or water with his supper. He got up and made a fist and took a swing. Missed by a mile and didn't try again and sat down and refused to answer the question.

He accepted the food. (I was afraid it would get thrown around the room.) And ate it all and has sat there watching tv.

Now it is bed time. I don't know what I want to do. I don't really want to be in the same county with him.

I think I will send an email to the psychiatrist tomorrow. Maybe I will give him a Haldol tomorrow afternoon before supper. We don't see the psychiatrist till end of August. Should I ask for an earlier appointment?

I am daydreaming about starting the process to place him in Memory Care. But seems like the aggression has to be handled before that can happen. And if there is no aggression then he could stay here. Sounds like Catch 22.

Any suggestions? He is on 250 mg depakote generic twice a day. It is just three months. No side effects. In fact we haven't had any diarrhea all this month!!!

The full moon seems to affect them even in a facility. I was told by the workers in my husband's facility, during a full moon the residents are definitely more restless. For one, the residents are walking around all night - more than usual.

I visited my husband one morning after a full moon & was told he'd been up since 3 am & he was still awake at 10 am. They had given him something to eat & drink at 3 am - he liked that & sat quietly & didn't cause a problem. When it was time for breakfast, he ate again. I'm assuming he must have slept in the afternoon.