I just found out today that Dan now has bladder cancer. I'm too tired to go into detail of the last week or so, but now I'm facing a BIG decision. I did glance at a few of the comments on a couple of similar threads here & know I will need to talk to hospice. I can hardly believe the time is coming for that. I just want to sleep & sleep.....
I have calmed down a little today, just casually looking up some things & bookmarking them. I know I need to talk to people, not rely on articles, but sometimes there are little tidbits that might be useful. I'll start writing things down so I can keep track of whom I need to talk to, when I need to talk, etc. I must say, it's been quite a year (not even!). I keep trying to find little things to be thankful for...right now my health is good so that I can attend to these matters, that so far we have not had any major winter weather that would prevent me from doing what I need to do, that I have support from this group & one more on FB, that I have support from my friends & my church. My kids are behind any decisions I have to make. And I think it's also a blessing that Dan is completely unaware of what is going on. The evening after the surgery was a nightmare until the nurses could finally get an order for Ativan (spelling?). I stayed at the hospital all night & went back to the nursing home with him. Then I was called at 3:30 AM to tell me that he had been taken to the hospital because he was trying to get the catheter out & caused bleeding. At that point I was almost unconscious, so as long as I didn't hear any more, I figured things were okay....they were. "No news is good news". Still overwhelmingly tired.
Sorry Mom, I thought I was having bad days but I think your story topped mine. It is a blessing for both of our guys they don't know of the shape they are in! I'm just so thankful that I can look to God for my problem solving! What a savior!