Haven't been around for a while. Life .... so nice to think you missed me! Thank you! The feeling is mutual, although I don't want to keep telling my troubles.
You might think I have given up the fight, but (it must be my Scottish blood), I just cannot give in - in spite of what it does to me, I feel that I must fight on ... Rene is gone, but there are others left behind him, and I'm hoping they can benefit from this (I hope this will be a gift from Rene to the others following him.) Am I just being stubborn ... I hope not ... I think that what I want is just what is fair and humane. (Mind you, I have had a few glasses of wine, (which Rene would NEVER approve of - it just gets me through the rough patches). Anyway ...
I've appealed to the Police and the Privacy Commissioner, and while I cannot say too much, their response make me more determined than ever to make them give me answers!
Otherwise, life goes on.
Don't want to say too much about our daughter ... sensitive issue ... but she began having epileptic seizures after birth (22 years) ago, and they have become worse. Trying to work with it all.
Pls know that I miss you all, but don't want to be a depressant. I have gained SO much from all of you, and I love you all, Margaret
I looked through the widows/widowers section but could not find any post from Coco. Anyone hear lately how she is doing and how her mom is doing? (think it was her mom)
I keep hoping she'll get in touch with me here in Vancouver. The last I heard she was coming to this area to take care of her mother, and her brother lives 5 mins. away from me.
Aloha everyone thanks for thinking of me. Please know you are always in my heart too. Still living in my "shack" just up the road from my home which I have rented out. This was originally to go to Canada and take care of my Mom. That did not pan out, long difficult story...but Mom is ok. So now I stay here, saving money as best as I can..to travel to Ireland with a girlfriend this September. It is a lifelong dream we have had, I have never been anywhere in the Europe area. We have about three weeks there.
Grief still lingers of course, it changes, I go on. Life will never be the same, but I am trying to make the best of it. I did drop out of Alzheimers Ambassadors Paul so no more Washington DC. I miss you though, and think of you often. Keep in touch.
Dado will finally be getting his headstone from the VA and I will likely go to his hometown on Maui when it arrives in a month or so. I have made the decision to not go every anniversary to visit his grave, but I would like to be there when they place the stone.
I still love him with every inch, and though time moves on., all it takes is to think of him and look at his photos and the pain is just the same. Still not dating or even thinking of it. Working on being strong with my own life.
Please take care, keep in touch, I love you guys! Patty
Coco, good to hear from you. I am sorry it did not work out going to take care of your Mom but good to hear she is doing OK. You are where you need to be. You are moving forward, proof is your trip to Ireland. I would not worry about dating or even thinking about it - if it is meant to be it will come with time. May even happen when you least expect it sometime down the road.
Coco, sorry I won't be seeing you this year. But I didn't expect you to stay in the Ambassadors program when you went to Canada to help your Mom. But going to Ireland sounds like a lot more fun.