Last Thursday DH took a bad fall in our bedroom. He took the tv down with him when he fell. The old fashion big box kind. Thank goodness he was ok. The on call Hospice nurse came out and checked him. His blood pressure was down just a little. And when his regular nurse came the next morning she also found it down. And it was lower the following Monday and down more again yesterday. Also his oxygen level was down yesterday for the first time. In all our years together his blood pressure has always been perfect. I was the one with the wonky blood pressure. Our Hospice nurse is not sure if this is just another decline or if we are nearing the end. DH is so tired now, spends most of his time in bed. Last two nights he has gone to bed at 4:30. When he is up about 3 or 4 hours total he spends his time coloring. He enjoys it. Last week he colored a picture of a little girl, and colored her crying. She had blue running down her cheeks. That was a first. I am saving that picture. Most time DH seems happy, but from time to time he gets sad. Just getting very hard.
My wife was diagnosed almost 15 years ago. Until last year she could function quite well, and we made a decent life together. Now she is in a home and I am terribly alone. Flat line for 12 or 13 years then the cliff. It is a truly nasty disease.
I'm truly sorry. After beIng together so long it's hard to start again getting out. Try taking a class, or joining a group. Stepping out the first time is very hard, most people are very friendly and kind. She is being taken care of, now you can take care of you. Hugs to you. Bonnie
I am sorry to read this..hang on tight, the ride might get rough with so many unexpected and confusing situations and questions. This is not easy, I know.
The more I read the post about the last period in the member's LO lives the more I realize that all the tough times and hardships that had happened previously are let go and they get to get back to finding the love again.