So it was only a week ago that I was feeling pretty sorry for myself, sick with a cold and missing my old husband. Things change and I wanted to share something good with you all.
We had made plans to go out with a group of old friends for lunch. DH knew all about it, and appeared to be looking forward to it. When he woke up this morning, he didn't want anything to do with the idea. Didn't want to waste time being with these people, didn't like them, etc. I told him I really wanted him to go but that if he didn't want to I would go alone and be fine with that (luckily he is still able to stay alone). He said he was staying in bed and so I got ready and went into the living room. Had a little talk with myself about the progression of the disease and about not wasting time being disappointed or angry with him since he really couldn't help it.
About 10 minutes later he walked into the living room and said in effect: "I will go with you. You do so much for me and ask for so little in return, I'm sorry I was acting like that." I actually started to cry. I would have been fine going alone but it was such a gift to see a glimpse of my old husband and to know that I haven't lost him completely yet.
It is nice that he could, in retrospect, view his own behavior. And apologize. My wife, at times, will apologize for her behavior, but she always sees that she HAD to act that way.
That's great news, ring! Isn't it wonderful when we get our LO's back, if only for a short time? Maybe its something in the air, or the change in the weather - this week has been very busy for us, and throwing our normal routine out the window, with an outing to Ottawa on Tuesday for a birthday party, (away from home for several hours), my DH out with a friend on Wednesday evening, and today we were in Ottawa again, gone from home for 9 hours, and I expected some problems because of all this break in routine, and because DH was on his best behavior all the time we were out, and he didn't even get his afternoon nap, but so far, fine. He even commented on some of the scenery we passed by. It was great!
Hi all It must be something in the air because DH and I had two outings this week end with our son who came from Alberta and he was so good and enjoyed himself. He was very tired after each one but he said he really enjoyed them. We drove along the river and he pointed out the lovely houses that were for sale and how many there were. He asked me if it would be better for me if he went to a residence and I quickly told him no. I want him here with me for as long as I can. That made him light up. It is so strange to watch this here and then not here phenoninum we all go through as they move from one person to the other, but very painful. He has been very tired lately and needing more sleep and is kind of sucky like a young child. He is also very polite again and this is new with the BV fronto Varient we don't see much of that anymore. He will have his assessment on Monday of his lat testing done last week. our son will be going with us. We can use an objective ear with us. It is hard to take in all the information as to changes wether good or bad. I am very fearful of the results of this one as there have been lots of changes and lots of ups and downs. I would be very happy if they said we were wrong and misdiagnosed him and he doesn't have a dementia, but that is just in my wishes and is not possible, but wouldn't it be lovely if all our dreams and wishes regarding this disease would come true? If only all are prayers would be answered and this nasty disease would be just swept away like a cloud never to return?oign out tonight for all of us from all of us.
Nite! Nite! Well I guess it is better to hope and pray then to live in despair. Prayers are g