I didn't know where to post this or what title to give it! As many of you know I haven't posted much for quite a while. My husband died in August and I have done less than nothing since then. I hadn't done much of anything since he was in ALF either. I didn't even go to church very often especially the past few months.
For whatever reason I woke up last Friday felling really good. I decided to start making the Baptismal hankies again for my church. It took from last Friday until last night to make 12 of them but I did it. The reason it took so long is because of my back, I can't stay bent over the machine for much more than 20 minutes.
Monday I cleaned my house properly and last night I cooked dinner for myself in stead of something frozen and cooked in the micro wave. I don't know what is going on with me but I hope it lasts. Also, for some unknown reason my hip isn't hurting as bad as it was. I hope and pray this isn't the calm before the storm.
One thing I would add to Joan's "sooner rather than later" is the obituary for you LO. My husband went so fast and I guess I was in shock but there were things I would have put in the obituary if I had had more time to think.
I would like everyone to know I pray for everyone with whatever form of demetia and especially for all caregivers. I pray 2013 will be good for all of you and there will be something pleasant each day. God Bless.
Oh, Jean21*, it's so good to hear from you. I think of you often and have wondered how you are. Maybe you just needed that 'down time' to get yourself back together! I do hope those good feelings continue and you can enjoy you life now. Keep in touch here and let us know how you are. Love and hugs to you.
Jean21* So pleased for you. My dh also died in August and it isn't easy to get in a "living again" groove. But, both my daughters had a talk with me during the holidays. They were very respectful and they understand that I still need to grieve, but they also told me I needed to start doing my sewing and other things I enjoyed before my Jim passed. Well, I have "turned the page" as I had planned to do with the coming of the new year and I know I must get interested again in the things I enjoyed before his illness. I am so thrilled with your post because it makes me feel like I can do this too. It is not easy...but, we have to do this for ourseleves. Thank you for your post.
Good for you Jean21*!! Keep on keeping on. I hope soon that time will come for me. Just 3 months a widow now and I haven't reached where you are but I do have hope it will be someday.
Jean 21 - I am so happy for you. Nature is just doing her thing. We are programmed to survive whether we want to or not, and time leads us there. Of course, time is different for everyone, but this is a wonderful first step. There will be more.
Hi Jean - Isn't God wonderful? Seems to know just what we need and when we need it. I haven't lost my dh (although all of December I thought it was imminent, but we're back to our normal now), but I was pretty depressed almost all of last year. I, too, sew, mostly quilts and was pretty serious about my sewing for many years. Then, all of the sudden last February, I finished a project and couldn't get interested anymore, my poor Bernie (machine) sat idle for 10 months. I went to see my doctor about 6 weeks ago to see if maybe I needed some anti-depressants and, I guess that just talking to her about how I felt and praying and talking to my two best friends, all of the sudden my dark clouds lifted and I'm enjoying life once again. Funny how you can go along for so many months in a funk and one day wake up and it's gone and you have regained your zest for life.
I'm so happy this is happening for you now. Sounds like you have a life that you can enjoy again. Happy New Year, Jean - you go, girl!! God bless