Hi bluedaze* Thanks for asking (Already October post). I am doing better than I was but hope to do even better! I volunteer two mornings a week, one at the Family Life Center at my church and the other at Homewatch Caregivers. I have even started to wear makeup again! The biggie is cleaning more in the house. I still have a lot of Mac's items to get out of the house but I am getting there. My biggest problem is not being able to turn off my memories because most of them are the bad ones of the last few weeks of Mac's life and the day he died. There is guilt because I never had the chance to speak to him before he died. I guess sometime it will all fade and the good memories will take over. Again, thanks for asking.
jean its good to hear you are making some progress. it does take time to work thru all the emotions involved with losing our spouses. take care and stay in touch when you can. divvi
Bluedaze* ...here is a feeling I get and my son said he couldn't understand it. Gord has been gone for a year and 3 days. I know intellectually that he is gone and yet. There are so many times when I see something, smell something, do something and it hits me that he is gone forever. I will never see him again. At those moments, I can't breath at the thought of it. Yet I know he is gone.