Is it only me who gets weary, Of repeating everything I say? Of going over & over the same things, Each & every day?
Am I the only one who gets tired Of doing everything that has to be done? Where it used to be two who shared the chores, Now there is only one.
Does anyone else feel the sadness, When they see the blank look in their eye? I feel sorry for me, but much more for him, It just makes me want to cry.
I know that I'm not the only one, Who feels guilty when I don't give my best. But sometimes it's hard to have patience, When you just don't get enough rest.
But for me the most difficult part is, Accepting that he'll never be the same. So I'll try my best to take care of him, Even when he doesn't know my name.
So if you see yourself in this poem, You must know that others do too. So lets stay in touch with words & good thoughts, To help each other through.
This has been rolling around in my head for a few weeks now so i thought I would write it down.
Zibby, I would be honored if you would share it & that goes for anyone else. I love to write poems (I wrote another one I "published" here (A Caregivers Poem). It is how I let my feelings out. Thank you all for your kind comments.
Sherizee, Yes, VERY therapeutic! It's funny the way I write. If I get a line or two in my head I have to write it down immediately or I will forget it. Once, many years ago my daughter & I were driving somewhere & I was thinking about writing a poem for my grandmother's 88 birthday. Well right there & then I made her get out a notebook & write while I dictated it to her. So this morning while I was driving home from our grandson's soccer game I started getting the verses in my head, but unfortunately the person sitting next to my was my DH & he can't write anymore so I had to wait until I got home. What's your story? (& by the way I have read your poems here I they are also very heartfelt).
Elaine, That is so funny I am the same way, I have bits of poetry written on scraps of paper, napkins you name it! It is very weird sometimes it can take me just minutes to write an entire poem. I am embarrassed to say it out loud, but my head thinks in rhyme. As soon as I start to write rhymes come out. I have tried very hard to not write in rhymes and it is very difficult for me LOL ! Does that happen to you?
Wow Elaine...captures it all. You must pass this along to the alz website or anywhere where AD caregivers gather. And hopefully you are keeping a journal for future publishing. Poems are very therapeutic. Thanks for sharing.
Sherizee, LOL Yes, yes, & yes! I also have lines of poems on scraps of paper. I actually prefer to write in rhymes. I automatically think of a word to rhyme with the last word in the line. Years ago I bought a rhyming dictionary. Last year I looked for it & couldn't find it so I bought another one. A few weeks ago I was sitting here writing & I was too lazy to look for the rhyming dictionary so I got on my iPhone & looked for a rhyming dictionary app.......sure enough, there it was & it was FREE! (ain't technology great?!) So now I can take it along wherever I go. Scs, Yes, I am keeping a journal & have poems I wrote years ago. The other caregiver poem I wrote I posted on facebook on the Memory People group page & someone from one of the AZ newsletters asked me if they could publish it & I said yes (can't remember which one it was)
Am I the only one that gets tired of watching the same programs over and over? I love the shows but to watch them over and over when you just saw it the day or a couple days before?
I turned the TV on this morning, hit the syfy channel where Star Trek was on. I love it. I use to stay up late to watch Star Trek Voyager and Generation cause he does not like sci-fi. Instead of my normal switching the channel I left it on. Figured if he didn't like it he could either go back to sleep, or get out of bed and go watch the other TV. He went back to sleep. It felt good to watch something just for me.
Great poem, Elaine! Charlotte, if I could find America's Funniest Videos that played all day, it would be great. Lloyd watches that program and laughs and laughs and I laugh at him laughing.
I got so tired of sitting there watching MASH reruns for the umpteenth time, but wanted to be in the same room with him, so used a little portable DVD player, bought the entire seried of "Northern Exposure" and, using earphones, was able to enjoy myself.
My dh sleeps through most everything but likes to have Fox business on. He watches the scroll through at the bottom of the screen on whatever is on. But as I said mostly he sleeps. I try to put baseball on thinking he might watch but he has lost all interest in anything now.