Today I sensed in H a sharpness, and I don't mean acuity, I mean criticism.
"You look like you are waiting for me to get something for you."
This is while I am sitting at my counter stool in the kitchen, enjoying my tv and my drink. What, me expect him to do something for me??? I just said (bad actress): "no, thanks for asking, I am just finishing with this program." (Not at all what I was saying in my head, so maybe I am not that bad an actress.)
Meanwhile, the wind is again howling and the moon is full and I am dreading that he is moving from a docile state- pretty much dominant since the holiday season- to that "everything aggravates me" state.
I have had it with the rage; I hoped once done it was done.
Do we have to revisit the rage?
I am so tired of this verbal ----, pretending everything is fine, being shut down as a person with thoughts and feelings
There is no doubt in my mind that air pressure, full moon and low clouds play a real part in the behavior of AD. Some have posted it previously so I am always on the lookout for odd behavior.
Paranoia, agitation always seem to be present at that time.
so hard abby. Though I too have the same issues as most everyone, he has been quite docile, almost scared. Before Alzheimers he was nice but could have a temper. Not too much now, though I did notice him getting more uptight on the 10 mg. aricept. I think your bottling up, being shut down, will keep happening with him. Sadly they will not get better. I wish you had a good pal to hang with. I wish I did too.
DH's halucinations and paranoia don't have anything to do with the weather that I can tell. They are a constant and they drive me crazy. I try to stay calm but he goes on and on and on and my voice gets louder and louder until I am almost yelling. I can hardly wait until next Wednesday to check the ALF out, then I have three more to check. I guess we all have different levels of tolerance and right now mine is about a one. Depending on how today goes it may drop into the minus range. I wish each of us a pleasant calm day.
I saw the moon last night and wondered if it would be a rough night. Not so bad. And today isn't as bad as several we've had in the past week. Maybe I'm the only person susceptible to lunacy here.
When he was home, I had to adjust his Ativan dosage for the 6 days before, the day of and the 3 days after the Full Moon. Otherwise his agitation, anxiety, and confusion were magnified a lot and life was he**.