There are days when I find myself on my hands and knees mid day saying that I can't do this anymore. But every night as I say my prayers I find that I have indeed made it through all the challanges that the day has presented and I stronger for it. Another day that the AD hasn't won. We have to have some grace through all of this and we have to remember that someday this could be us. I know its easy to say that you want someone to put you in a facility if you ever get to that point, but its not always going to happen that way. The more I get through, the more I realize what real grace is all about. And we all can do more than we think we can, I know because I said I would never do many of the things I have done. I would rather have uncomfortable moments for a little while, then a lifetime of regret. I wish you all grace.
Thanks Divvi, This helps put in perspective my feelings tonight and helps to know my feelings are understood by others. It helps the loneliness that can crop up from time to time.