Sincere sympathy to you and your family. You served faithfully with grace and kindness through this sad journey . I wish you and your family strength and peace.
((Patty)) I am so very sorry for your loss. I am glad you were able to be there with him... I am holding you in my heart and hoping you find comfort and peace. ((hugs))
Sincere condolences to you and yours Sheltifan. torn between the loss of our spouse but joy that they are released from the confines of the disease. peace. divvi
So sorry for your loss today. I am glad you were able to be with him at the end. I am overwhelmed by how quickly this happened. Prayers and thoughts with you during this difficult time.
Sorry for you loss Patty but happy for your husband that he is done with this AD journey. He is whole again. Now it is your time to take care of yourself, try to rest so you will be ready for the challenges of going on with life with the hole that is left behind.
I am sorry to hear about your loss! We all have so much in common here and talk to each other so many times that with all these spouses dying I feel like it is my loss too. Of course not literally but figuratively. Does that make sense? I want you to know that you were a good caregiver and all your comments helped me as well. Rest well now knowing that he is alright now. Love ya!
Thank you all for your kind words, prayers and support. Denial runs deep in us humans. I really thought when hospice came on board on Friday, that he would survice another year.
Has anyone else experienced this? Today I was awash in relief. I felt peaceful and so glad he wasnt suffering anymore. I assume this will be a roller coaster ride, but the day of inner-peace confused me a bit, but was a welcome feeling from the past 11 years of torment for both my husband and for me.
Maybe it is all your prayers lifting me to a level of peace and if so..thank you thank you thank you.
Patty-You will probably find each day different. Some days full of relief, some sorrow, some of anger for things that will not be. After a while you will wonder about what now?
Patty, I think being relieved is a normal reaction....I remember thinking that my shoulders relaxed for the first time in years the morning my husband died.
Just remember that it is your time now.....take care of you and enjoy yourself......
Patty, I am glad I read your comment before posting this. It is so good to know you are feeling peaceful. I hope that feeling continues. Please accept my condolences.
First of all, thank each of you for your thoughts support and prayers these last days. It has meant the world to me just to know you are all spread out over the world, yet here in this family of ours.
The day of peacefulness I experienced was that, one day of relief, peace and joy he was released from his suffering. In my grief, I try to remember those moments of peacefulness I felt for him. I am just ssoooooo sad. I would have taken care of him forever if it meant I could have had him here, but that is so selfish. His last months were full of anxiety I felt washing off him and his last days were full of struggle. Thank God he is released from all that.
I am to pick up his ashes today from the funeral home. I am not having an easy time with this, but who would, right? I will be posting today, maybe under another header, as I will need this family around me before during and after picking up his remains. I dread this day.
These are all difficult milestones, but each one brings you closer to healing. It takes awhile - I'm not there yet - and it has its own rhythm, but it will soften. Tears are good, and you should let yourself go with them: someone once told me that they are God's blessing. If nothing else, they clean out the sinuses and make your eyelashes grow. Be patient with yourself, and indulge yourself with extra sleep and simple pleasures.