Thank you all so much. I have been so busy with the particulars of this.... I feel like I haven't had time to realize that he's gone. After the wake and funeral mass, it will catch up with me. This Alzheimer spouse group has helped me through so much. I know all of us feel that way, but I've been here since the beginning and words cannot express my gratitude to Joan for starting this site, and for all of you who have supported all of us. I'm going to see if I can get my star on.
I wish you peace inside. All people that earn their star should feel that along with the other feelings. When it does catch up with you try to realize also what it is you did for another human being and for love.
It's funny, I held up strongly throughout last week, the planning, the wake, the funeral.... Went to DD's for the weekend, Granddaughter was in a show, and I wanted to see her. But today, when I returned to this empty house, I suddenly broke down, the floodgates opened, and I felt better afterwards. You can only hold it in so long. he was a wonderful husband, and I have been blessed to have had 40 yrs with him. ( married 35 yrs) Thank you all for your kind words.