I related to your blog. I can't say that I am angry about what has happened, but I am saddened and wish it hadn't. Bill and I are both retired and we had all the great plans of spending time at our "house in the woods" away from everyone, just the two of us. We use to say that we could go there and make love all day without any kids to barge in needing something. That never happened and never will now. I still take Him there, but he doesn't know where we are or who I am at times. We did a lot of traveling before AD, but now the trips we take are to our daughters homes and he doesn't know where we are when we are there, either.
I'm not angry and I don't even ask why. What difference does it make why, it doesn't change the way things are. Bill and I went through some rough and sad times together and were there to hold each other. Our only son died at the age of 7 from leukemia, six months later I was in the hospital for a month when I had to have a kidney removed, shortly after that my father died, four weeks later, Bill's father died, one month later a cousin and his daughter were killed, Then my sister was diagnosed with uterine cancer. All this within a year. We made it through that year together. Now I will make it through this. Bill can't hold me like he did then, but I can still hold on to him.
No, I'm not angry but I am sad and very lonely. I, we, have all been robbed of our future together and all the plans we made together.
Joyce, Very well put! I also live in Michigan and we have our "house in the woods" on Higgins Lake. Like all of us, a lot od dreams vanished when we heard the words AD. DickS
We are not far from you Dick. We are in Luzerne. Between Grayling and Mio. We are going there on Monday and as of now I plan on staying until the first part of November. Can't make definite plans because I don't know how Bill will be. We just got home a week age after spending a month there and he was good there, but I never know.
We're kind of in between the children and retirement stages. Our 2 oldest are in college, and our younger 2 in 10th and 12th grades. So I'm fortunate in that the labor-intensive years of child rearing are behind me. But I certainly was looking forward to this time of increasing independence, and time to travel, sans kids. One thing I wanted to do was backpack the Continental Divide Trail. Well, guess it ain't gonna happen, but we're trying to make what we can of now.