After reading your blog for this weekend (which I thought brought up a very good point) I realized what it is that I miss the most about our marriage. It is the feeling that my wife always had my back in everything that happened and now while sometimes she tries it somehow is not the same. Her ability to understand the complexity of what I am talking about just scares her and she has me stop talking without ever getting her feedback. It just adds to the lonely feeling that while she is here physically, mentally she does not compute. I can relate to what you are saying and I think that is probably why most of us feel compelled to share here with others who can relate. While nothing really changes in our trip, it somehow helps to know that I am not alone on the journey. Talking here and to God helps put things in perspective and then I trod on alone. It''s probably the alone feeling that is really the hardest to bear. All the other frustrating things that happen you just write off to the disease, but after 50 years it is hard to lose your partner and backup person. (your co-pilot).