That glimmer of hope and love and life feeds my soul when it hungers so badly for a future that will never be ... I keep reminding myself that, even though the future life we dreamed of is not going to happen, my future life ... my this life ... can be full of love, life, and laughter. I just don't believe it down to my toes yet ... it's still in my head and working its way down to my heart. :-)