Three days without hearing from Divvi ! Please let us know how you are, even if it's what you had for breakfast this morning, or what wild life is eating up all the profits. Love and hugs.
first off thank you so much for your gestures. i have been much less active lately - i do read and check the boards daily but find lots of times i need to muster the energy to reply although i would like to offer support for those posting. since hospice i have come to grips with what end stages is all about and honestly can say when its staring you in the face its a huge slap of reality you cant ignore any longer. we want to stay in the plateaus for a bit longer but AD has its own mind. you will know what i am saying once you get to this part of the journey, those who have been and are know what i mean. the hump is crossed and we are now on the downside of the slope so we must pull up the biggirl panties and ready for whats ahead like it or not. sometimes we think we taken all the hits early in AD and that the hardest times are over when we've crossed over to the acceptance stages. no so. when you must sign the DNR forms for hospice its another big jump to take. good news is now i am over the hump i am slowly making progress to come to terms with the 'gran finale' that awaits us all. the waiting game is now is progress and its yet another mental strain that we must endure. my personal hump was extreme but i have made progress. life here goes on as in your homes and i find smiles and good times in the small things. squirrley has been throwing temper tantrums due to getting a peice of bread without peanut butter. omg she threw it back at the door. haha. i am an enabler as usual and encourage her bad behaviour by giving her bread back with pb on it. DH is smiley and happy in his new hospital bed and so am i now that the shock of sleeping as one has worn off. we are getting a restful sleep most of the time. hospice is coming 2wk to bathe which is marvelous, but i am just getting to where i can do other things while the aides go it alone. it is quite hard to turn loose and let others step in and take charge.. :) but its a good feeling once its ongoing. i know so many here have so much going on and need support of all the good folks here. i will give myself a few get with the program slaps and hopefully can renew the jumpstart to continue postings on a regular basis again. lets make february a good month for all the friends here and heres a big hug to each of you too!! its the good friends here that help us to pull one another out of the daily funk!!! divvi and yes nikki check in when you can !
Thanks for posting Divvi. I can only imagine what you're going through now that DH is on Hospice. You're so much a part of this web site that you're really missed when we don't hear from you. Same with Nikki. Hope she can update us soon.
Thank you for posting, divvi. I can't imagine what you have been going through and I certainly understand when you can't or don't feel like posting. Just wanted to know you are okay - or as okay as you can be with the load you are carrying. Bless you and your DH. What a help you are and will always be. Thank you. And big (((()))))s
Divvi, I went through the same feelings you did. We didn't get much time with hospice but they were wonderful. It is just beginning for you and oh, how you are in my heart. I will be praying for you.
Weejun, yes, she's fastastic. Good to hear from you, divvi. I know things are difficult for you, but it sounds like your DH is quite content, and that's your doing.
divvi-the eternal optimist. It is hard to come to grips with the fact that we have done everything right but in the end we will lose our loved ones. Your humor and wonderful insight is a tremendous help to us all.
I couldn't survive this without you, dear one... Even when we are down, you make us understand and accept and see the humor that allows us to get through the hardest times.
We can only get through this if we have each other, and let others know how we are coping with each stage, each new loss, each frustration, and see what is ahead and face it with eyes wide open and look for the humor in it to get us through. You taught us that.
Divvi, I feel as though you have helped me so much with your posts--thank you. I want you to know I am thinking of you and praying that you will have strength through this part of the journey. Please keep us posted on how you are doing!
thank you ALL SOOO much for your support! geez, yall really know how to pull heart strings on the poop queen. (HUGGSSS)
and by the way, just because hospice is on board, it only works really well if your spouse cooperates and does the pooping on the day they come to bathe, haha.. otherwise you STILL have to do poop duty::)) just a sobering thought!
and my loving DH is still giving me reasons to retain my 'crown' - i would feel naked without it i guess now! ha.
and yes i do know how it feels when posters drop off the face of the earth and left everyone hanging - glad you called me out on that ((mary75))! divvi
Divvi, you have helped me several times with your insightful posts to my postings. I want you to know that you are valued so much. I send you many hugs as you go through these last stages. Much love to you.
Divvi, In case you haven't figured it out you are our very own resident expert on all things dementia. Ergo, it stands to reason you are missed when you don't post for a while. I hope hospice is doing well by your DH and you. Take care and God Bless.
I don't post that much Divvi but indeed you are missed. Suspected something was going on. You are one of the many here who have been so helpful and no one NO ONE can glamourize POOP better than you!! Sincerely thinking of you and even though it seems like I'm typing this more and more, I pray that Hospice is able to provide the help and support you need right now.
Yes, you have been our resident expert on POOP and many other things. You have been generous with your advice, but you have rarely opened up with your feelings and asked US to help you. I am glad to see that you have shared your emotions at this most difficult time. Those who are in the same stage you are going through understand and will help you get through it. Those of us, like myself, who are not there yet, can gain some wisdom from you and others who are dealing with the end.