yep it`s Friday the 13th alright, crying most of the morning, got letter from DHS dening help for the expenses`s from the memorial for Bob, now what do I do I paid half hope they will let me pay payments, children are all living from pay check to pay check so I go it alone. o well what else can happen, I just don`t care anymore. It is also 3 weeks today he passed and am not doing to well today, everyone is working and I have no one to cry to except my cyber family, why is it so hard, we all know what is going to happen eventually to our loved one. I`m so sorry I don`t mean to bring anyone down, please enjoy your love before it`s to late, don`t get angry with them like I did at times I live to regret it, I long for the good times we had together, hand holding ,kisses, hugs, the little things, I pray for all of you god bless. Gail
marygail*, Please don't feel quilt about getting angry at times. We all have those days or I know I do. It's not that we don't love them but life can get so stressful that we have trouble coping. I will be praying for some sunshine in your life. Grieving is hard but it is a process that we have to work through at our own pace. As so many who have loss their spouses have told us on this site that life can be good again so give yourself time and try to be open to new experiences. God bless you today is my prayer.
Marygail, sorry you are feeling low; hopefully things will look better on the next bright morning. So sorry about the letter from DHS; I hope someone will be along with a practical suggestions for dealing with the memorial expenses. You have enough grief without financial worries as well. Sending you kind thoughts and wishing you strength!
marygail - please do not stop crying to us here. We are here for those who have lost their loved ones as much as for those still on the journey. Gail plays a lot of games on Facebook - join us there. Maybe that will be a distraction for you. As for the guilty because you were human - forget it. He has forgiven you. You are the only one being hurt by the guilt you feel. Let it go. If you need to maybe this will work: write a letter about it with all the thoughts and pain, then bury or burn it. Then go on knowing you have been forgiven.
Marygail, Try to concentrate on the good times you had and forget the bad ones and the times you lost your temper. I don't expect to get through this disease without loosing my temper. Hang in there and be nice to yourself. God Bless.
Call missed on my cell phone and message alarm on my land line when I get home from aerobics-not good. Bill fell out of his w/c to the floor-sustained a bruise on his forehead. Hospice nurse on her way. Before I could get my car out of the garage the hospice nurse calls. Bill is uninjured except for a rug burns on his forehead. They were able to stand him up and get him back to his usual recliner. He seems fine now. Have to figure out how to prevent this from happening again. In the wisdom of fools- patients cannot be restrained, even for their own good. Amy will help us figure something out. Never a dull moment.
Gail, my heart goes out to you. I will remember your words next time I have the urge to yell at my DH. Thank you for the help. (((HUGS))) And Bluedaze, glad Bill is uninjured, and never a dull moment is right! :)
MaryGail I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. Don't let the events of the day team up with the date of the 13th ruin things for you. I can only imagine what you are going thru but I do know that all of your cyber family are praying for you and extending hugs and well wishes. Hang in there and please remember you are always home here.
Bluedaze, I am glad that Bill is not injured from his fall. You are right about never a dull moment "Uncle Al" always keeps us on our toes.
Hope both you and Marygail have a better evening and weekend...God Bless you both,.....