Today is September 9, 2009. Keep hearing it on TV, radio, and around the office. "Supposed to be the special day each year that a month, date, and year appear in order.
Today though I wish I could just stay at home hugging a blanket. This is Paul's birthday. The first birthday since he passed away. (>_<) sigh.....
New Realm, My sympathy goes out to you. Even my mother's birthday (and she passed 18 yrs ago) is still a sad day to me. But it shows that the loved one will always be in your heart. many hugs to you on this day.
Dear Realm: It is a sad day for us also: It is our Grand-daughters 21st Birthday, she passed away in 2004 from bone cancer... my Hugs to you..Life does not get easier.....
I'm sending huggs in every direction toooo.. Count me in. Anniversaries are tough enough without the oddness of the calendar date. Hang on dear friends.
Thanks for all the kind thoughts and encouragement.
I had to work today. I went in 30 minutes early hoping to get ahead on some reports I was shown how to do once, last week, and was expected to do solo this week. They were due yesterday. I was having a bad week, and couldn't concentrate on what I needed to do. It was hard, and yesterday any help, while usually readily available to me while still training, wasn't. The boss thought the gal training me on my primary job knew how to do what he was asking me to do as an additional duty. Turns out she didn't know. I went in this morning already choked up, but also worried about how the boss might react. He was busy on other things, did offer some help, but my perception was that he wasn't too pleased.
I was on the verge of tears most of the day and didn't want to share where my heart and mind was until the end of the day and we were walking out the door. I started tearing up then and remarked to my coworker that I was sorry if my mind seemed to be somewhere else all day, and apologized for any frustration I was responsible for. She darn near started tearing up herself, and said she lost a husband years ago. She wished I'd said something early in the day because she understands and just would have wanted me to know that. Being new I didn't want to bring it up as though I was looking for pity and for them to excuse my performance and go easy on me.
I got in a good cry on the drive home and hopefully tomorrow will be better.
And, New Realm, the best part of your post was the second paragraph where you were talking about your work day and what you had to do and what you thought about and what you worried about and that my dear, is proof that you have launched a brand new life that is unfolding before you. You are bound to have the sad times, the bad days, but you give us all such encouragement when you post of a "normal" life after. Bless you -- and go get 'em girl! Tomorrow is another day and you are a beautiful woman who has the world by the tail!