Morning All, Mixed emotions today. Jim's having a Gould Assessment at 2:00. This is a State Assessment to determine if he needs to be placed. He wants to, he can't take the noise around here, and is frustrated at being primarily confined to our livingroom and bedroom. With all the rain, he can't even walk around to the front porch. This means if he has to come upstairs for a shower, we have to help him, or wait for the aide to arrive twice a week. I'm so upset about Mary's daughter, that I'm sure is making me more emotional. Oh Lord, life is so damm difficult. To much trauma, to much hurt, to much disappointment. We were supposed to grow old together, travel, sit on our front porch and rock together. I always said that I wanted to die 5 minutes before him, because I couldn't stand to live without him, then the dx came. I'm trying to remember the strength of all those who have walked the walk before me. Love you all, Susan
Susan L , I always said the same thing I wanted to die before my dh but I know have different plans, we wanted to sit and grow old together retire where the dry heat is, Az. our plans are lost , yes our emotions are running high today with Mary`s daughter passing and it`s going to be difficult. It sounds like it`s getting hard for Jim to handle noise , that happened to my Bob but he didn`t want to be placed. I`m sorry Jim wants to be placed it will be hard on you if that is the decision you are in my thoughts and prayers, grab the rope and hang on. Gail
Susan, So sorry about your anxiety. I am a true believer that things happen for a reason and you may find it a relief if he has to be placed. I fought it, as most of us do, but in the end, I realized I kept him home too long and it was really in HIS best interest to be placed. I am now more able to deal with this monster of a disease. He really is doing much better there and as long as I see him well cared for, I am at peace with this decision. My prayers are with you.
Susan, it's so very obvious from your posts that you want what's best for Jim. If that is placement, you will have the strength to see it through because you love him so. Sometimes problems resolve in ways that are not what we anticipate, but turn out for the best. I'm here to testify there really is a world that is not dominated by AD, to give you a big hug, and to remind you we all love and care about you as you go through this torment. {{{{hugs}}}}