Today's Blog is about my fantasy of escaping the AD world for a little while. I invite you to read it and post your comments - What would you do if you could leave the AD world behind for a day or a week?
I would have to say I would like to leave this AD world behind but have my LO pulled out w/o AD and enjoy an exciting and fun day or week with children and grandchildren and a couple of friends that we are blessed to have left. Would not have to go far if anywhere at all but just NO AD feelings or restrictions because of it. Just having him back for a day or a week is so much of a good fantasy. Pat
I sometimes day dream about wife M being cured of AD and us living together happily. I read pages in our scrapbook of long ago and try to imagine what today should be like with no AD. The dark cloud of AD is always in my mind and I can't even imagine a carefree trip away for a few days.
Mar, Thank you for your positive statement. That would be awesome; a cure. We can only keep praying for that cure that will release us all and end this AD journey and also never to have worry about our children getting this horrible AD disease. ........... with God all things are possible; Matthew 19:26.
If I could escape for a week and money were no object, I would want to spend a week in NYC, walking, exploring museums, restaurants, neighborhoods, etc. My second choice would be to cruise the Amazon or visit the Galapagos Islands. I would also love to visit Cape Cod. I'm in a situation now that I can leave for up to a week, had I the money. My husband is now in Hospice (still at home) and there is a lovely lodge-type Hospice House nearby. Unfortunately my own health has declined so, I'm not in good enough shape to go anywhere. I am worn out. Just haven't been taking care of myself and ended up in the hospitals for three days last week having transfusions.
If I could have a fantasy day I would like to spend it with my sweet husband as this following excerpt from my journal states:
For one day...I would like to stand outside of this time and space and have my lover, companion, best friend, back again. We would get up early in the morning so that day wouldn't be wasted and go out to eat(him driving) breakfast which is his favorite meal, after breakfast go for a walk as we used to do every day, then sit and talk...I would try to catch him up on all the news ...first political as he was a history teacher and loved to discuss the politics of the day...sports especially that our beloved Missouri Tigers are having a great year so far (he graduated from Missouri Univ. and loved the basketball program), our church family and how they love him and care for him so tenderly, and the most important our family and how they have grown these past years (three more great-grandchildren that he does not recognize), we would then call together the children to visit with their dad to let him know how much they love him and to tell him the things they didn't think so important when he could recognize them (after all they thought they would have many more years to get those things said) and then just him and me sitting in front of the fire listening to the music that he so loved ( he now doesn't listen to any music) I would hold onto him and cherish his arms around me in a meaningful loving embrace and I would try to capture that moment for the many years left in life that I will be alone again with my memories
When things were finally diagnosed I asked my DH if there was anything he had ever wanted to do, anywhere he wanted to go. He was still aware enough and with children grown, we had no responsibilities. We could do anything. He said, 'all I care about is you, me and the kids.'
Talk about having your priorities straight! Since I felt the same way, there would be no work, sports, hobbies, travel, socializing, classes, volunteering--it would be just you, me & the kids. So we continued living the life we'd spent so many years building together in our comfy old house, neither one of us had any regrets.