i thought i had it before but when I walked into the nh and saw him so confused and lost i knew i made the right decission to put him there yesterday, i was doubting myself but no more, i realized i could not take care i think i saw what others were seeing for the first time, i was always thinking maybe it would get better, being away from him for one day made me see him differently,he has gone down hill so fast. It is the most awful feeling to see your loved one like this, he is not bedridden yet but he looks so old and only 69.i looked at him and saw him dying in front of me, i feel awful, wanted to run and hide from it all

marygail-my husband went from being able to teach CPR to the folks at his facility to being a resident there in just a few years. Was biking and playing tennis regularly. After he crashed he became this pale feeble little person who in no way resembled my husband. It is difficult to see them dying in front of you. Now a word of experience: live your life. Several times I took trips with family out of my area-recently out of the country. I went with my heart in my mouth. He always seemed to get really bad just before I left. Somehow looked better when I got home. Where you are or what you are doing (or not) will change nothing. You've got to look out for yourself.