Thank you all for the warm welcome. Needless to say, it was much needed. I wish I had known about this place many years ago when all this started. I tried to find a place for answers or just someone to talk to that was where we were at the time. No one knows unless you've been there. We tried with all our might to come up with an explanation as to why this was happening. We certainly NEVER thought of something like Alzheimers. It just couldn't be. Not to this young, handsome, all around good guy with everything to live for. Not him. But Alzheimers takes total control......in it's own sickingly slow time. When we are young we think sometimes of things that maybe could happen to us down the road.......such as cancer, heart attack or maybe even an accident.........but, we never think mental.......at least we never did. One thing I am thankful for.....for his sake....is that he now doesn't know. He did in the beginning and it was heart wrenching and almost to the point of unbearable. For me, I wish so badly I could talk to him and let him know that my life without him has been so lonely and so terribly sad. I wish he could put his arms around me and we could comfort each other through this. But, as we all know, that now is only a memory of the way it used to be. It is only a matter of time now for us that he will no longer be here in any form. I am so sad. I am glad I can put it into words here but even as I write this, the tears come. I know I just can't let myself feel this pain every minute or I know I couldn't get through each day. The pain is always there but we do have inner safeguards that let us put the pain and loneliness in a safer place for our own good than right out in front. But, I thank God I have found that front through you all who know EXACTLY what I am feeling and saying.